Valley of Despair

I stand here, 
I feel isolated and ashamed. 
Today I thought to move, but I did not. 
Today I reconciled to stay on track. I did not. 
Today I prayed for change. I prayed for change.

I did not.

Tomorrow. I stand.

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There are times when I feel as though I have let a lot of people down. I guess its called a valley of despair. Where the weight of our sin rears its ugliness and presses down on us (aspects of depression). There's been a few of these in the last year but this one hurts the most. Mainly because there's more than just me involved. We've been in the slow, downward spiral year after year and it has finally come to a head. How or DO I reconcile it? I believe I've fully come to terms with it...? Maybe it has to do with the seasonal change and/or something quite deeper. Either way I know I need change and to change.

Come quickly Lord Jesus, come quickly.

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